i was texting with s the other night.
describing to her a situation that had left me feeling forced into something.
i was upset and anxious over it.
her reply was simple :
"ah yes, i get that. if pushed we do not do well."
that is a sentence of gold.
i do not do well when i am pushed and pushed and pushed and pushed.
if i'm hesitant enough times when you ask me something, i'm politely saying no.
i don't want to hurt your feelings.
so take the ____ing hint and back off!
there is a reason why i only let two people push me : one is god and one is my therapist.
both are highly skilled and trained at working with people and in particular me.
when they say something i respond and i trust their pushing.
but you - no, i don't trust you - so leave me alone.
leave me be.