Thursday, December 20, 2012

i'm.not.ok.

broken
inadequate
unsafe
unhappy
isolated
alone
unsure
unstable
unpredictable
sad
tired
weary
teary
overwhelmed
stressed

just a few of the words that come to mind in this moment. in this moment of not being ok. not ok. i'm not ok.

throwing in the towel. to real to be funny. to real to be ironic. to real to be real.

ready to give in, give up, quit.

tired - stressed - sad

a dungeon. a doomy, gloomy, dreary, drafty dungeon. that's where i am emotionally.

too much stress . too much commotion .. too much ... at the end of this year. it's all too much. and i can't do it anymore.

over and over the chant of the little engine that could becomes the little engine that couldn't - the little engine that isn't ok - i'm not ok i'm not ok i'm not ok

do you hear me? am i making any sense? do you understand?

and all because of a situation. a small ??? situation. one that is blown out of proportion by my anxious mind, weary body, blood shot eyes.

broken
inadequate
unsafe
unhappy
isolated
alone
unsure
unstable
unpredictable
sad
tired
weary
teary
overwhelmed
stressed

this is what it is to live with an anxiety disorder. (today.)

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