back in june i wrote about vomit being my super power. and let me just say folks - never - ever - ever has time seemed so long ! i feel like i've been throwing up for years, but the reality is it's been almost 3 months. as one friend put it, i'll be super ready for pregnancy. though let's be real, i don't think i could ever do this again - so adoption might be the way i go :)
anyway, june found me vomiting - july found me going to the gastroenterologist - and getting an ultrasound - for my liver (while it seemed so many of my friends were having ultrasounds for babies -- that's a whole different post) - august found me having a specialized xray to watch my gallbladder 'work' - and the results showed that my gallbladder wasn't working - so off to a surgeon i went - and now, surgery on friday.
W . O . freakin' W .
keep in mind that on top of all of this, i have an anxiety disorder, making every test and doctor appointment hell, and i took time off of work - and now have to take more time off of work - and anyway , my mind spins with all the things to do and get done and ....
s u r g e r y.
so - what am i trying to say??
1 - i'm tired of throwing up. period.
2 - i'm ready for this to end and it looks like surgery is the only way out.
3 - i would gratefully welcome good thoughts, prayers, chants of the positive nature, or whatever it is you do to find god, spirituality, and peace in your life as i breathe through this week leading up to surgery.
i am doing my best to walk in my peace and beauty.